I have a touch of the blahs at the moment... I usually don't mind my own company but it is just fucking me off at the moment. I hate feeling like this; lonely, weepy, unable to concentrate. I've had major money probs over the last few days thanks to some major fuck-ups with paypal and my bank; I have no idea how to get out of the situation. I still have no idea how to get our belongings down from nsw... there are clothes in the cargo container that Jackson will no longer fit in. I want to sleep in my own bed and be able to wash my clothes anytime I like etc. The kids have been marvellous not complaining about not being able to have their fav toys, books, dvds etc. I don't want to have to wait any longer, nor do I want to spend the whole baby bonus (in July) to pay to get our goods up here. I want to be able to use the bonus to take the kids to NSW for a visit and take them to places like the zoo etc. I feel like a failure.

I want TJ and I to work things out; we're not fighting at the moment but I don't think he's moving in anytime soon. I don't need a man to make me complete but I want him back in our life full-time, not just a few mins here or a couple of hours there. He's getting set up in his sister's place nicely now. The people she was sharing with have moved out so he has moved into the top floor where they lived.

I will reply to comments sooner or later but not at the moment. I have read the comments but I've got a lot I'm trying to juggle at the moment.


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Edit: Could I sound anymore whiney? "boo hoo" "poor me"... well get a life then.

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